Lately I been feeling a tad on the lonely/sad/angry side. My husbands been out of town lately coming and going to from AZ to CA. I know I should be out there with him but I'm pregnant and I have most of my belongings, bills, doctor appointments back here in phoenix. I know its no excuse but I also feel safer here knowing that I have everything close like my family and doctor to call right away if anything is needed. THE only thing that is missing to make this whole situation better is my Adorable husband;-( Its a bit hard to deal with but I know he is doing this to support our little family and I know its tough on him too. I'm also close to my due date and i'm in constant worry hoping he'll make it back on time lol. I've also been extremely hormonal and like to take thing out on him but I love him because he loves me enough to fight back and try to resolve things lol. He always finds a way to make things better and because he knows I'm a GIRL, I'm HORMONAL, I'm super PRIDEFUL, I'am not PERFECT I'm more than IMPERFECT haha, I'm a total MESS right now cuz I feel so GIGANTIC with this baby here in my belly, and because he knows I'll eventually snap out of it;-)
But most of all....He sees me. He sees who am i. He sees what others are to busy or to blind to see. He sees me.
When I see problems, he sees the possibilities in them. Solutions where I can only see trouble. And I am thankful for that. I'm thankful for his calm and patience whenever I get angry or mad about the dumbest or simplest things. A shoulder to lean on. A hand to hold. A person to love. That's him. And I absolutely adore him. Especially his morning smile. The way we joke around and he looks at the lifelines in my hands. How he follows them with the tips of his fingers and how it usually tickles. How he says in a deep jokingly voice: "your lifelines say that we are forever bunny buns." And I crack up laughing hysterically almost peeing my pantaloons. No matter what he says I believe him;-) My butterflies become like suicide bombers and throw themselves at the walls of my stomach when I see or hear your name still babe. Which is a good feeling since it is the feeling that I have always associate with love. And that I can still feel it after 3 years and 2 months that we've been together.
We are forever. JOSHUA + ISABEL and our new soon to be addition= our lovely little KIKI (Kiara Marie Benson) ;-0
